My Updated Status...

In my life I don't mean much to anyone
I've lost my way can't go back anymore
Once I had everything now it's gone
Don't tell me again coz I've heard it all before

Some people say that I'm not worth it
I've made mistakes but nobody's perfect
Guess I'll give it a try

I've got one last chance to get myself together
I can't lose no more time it's now or never and I try to remember who I used to be
I've got one more chance to get myself together

The time has come for me to change again
I can't carry on like this, I will lose my friends - don't say that you have given up on me
Just give me the time and speace to heal my head

I don't wanna be misunderstood
I've got to take this chance and make it into something good



Direct Copy from James Morrison.

L.A.M.E. magazine

Alex is in the L.A.M.E. magazine. Not bad...

An Emo Story...

Folks, let me tell you of a story,
It's about me, about you, and all of us around,
I want to share this story of once upon a time,
No matter how it began, all has the same outcome.

It was about this little boy,
that goes by the name of Ivan,
Missing his little wife from afar,
Wondering what has she been up to.
Lack of communication they two have,
Making it harder for them to love one another,
Things tend to get a bit loose,
So did their relationship.
And one day, in a cold stricken winter,
He then turned up at her doorstep,
Knocking the door loudly,
Awaiting patiently as always.
She then came out, wondering who is that,
Then she knew it was Ivan at the front,
She then told and yelled at Ivan,
Shouting "I'm Breaking Up with You."
Yes, it hurt Ivan deeply,
A deep cut indeed I must say,
Ivan was stripped of his dignity,
His heart was hacked to pieces.
Ivan felt cold, even colder than the winter,
Shaking in terror and in fear,
He now know what darkness feels,
And he prayed to be isolated in it.
Next day, in front page of the news,
Ivan was hung at a tree outside of her house,
Leaving a note being written with his blood,
Never to be leaving that place forever again.
Every morning the girl walked out of the house,
She then see Ivan, standing under that tree,
He just waits and waits till he was being loved once more,
By that girl whom he has waited for years.
The girl was then admitted to asylum,
Leaving a pool of blood all over her room,
With a note on her desk being written in blood,
I'm giving you back your heart in me.

This is a true tale, few have foretold,
Not many know of it, but yet lived by it,
So please don't be a victim of a kind,
Love is not worth of losing a life.

My Current Life Status

I somehow finding myself,
Back at the same place I used to be,
A razor sharp blade at my left,
An unfinished sad love poem by my right,
I have no hope anymore,
But to live in a world of seclusion and denial,
Denying everything I see, hear or speak,
Secluding myself in darkness of silence,
Secluding myself away from everyone.
Leaving this world doesn't make me solely,
Staying here doesn't serve a purpose,
Let time decide my fate here,
I have once more lost my life,
To the silence and loneliness,
Looking at the time I am,
Time is just going by too slow,
So is this a torment or just life?
I do wonder as I stared at the clouds,
Up in the blue clear skies,
Hoping a change in my life...

Alex *Carbon-Carbon* Bond : Quantum of Silence

This is kind of a spoiler to the actual movie.


There was two black Land Rovers, chasing a elegant, 'fast' black Proton Waja in a tunnel. Guys from the Land Rovers were shooting the Proton Waja using M-16 assault rifles. The Proton Waja driver tried evading the bullets but unfortunately, the rear windscreen broke. The both side mirrors were damaged, due to his extreme bad driving. The right door (driver door) of the Proton Waja came out as the driver kicked the door so he could only enjoy the wind breeze. One Land Rover suddenly brake as they saw a sexy woman with a Red Porsche standing nearby the exit of the tunnel asking for help. Unfortunately, the Land Rover knocked into a trailer and flew to the ocean below. The other Land Rover continue pursuing the Proton Waja. They criss-crossed all over the road and at the quary site, the Land Rover was at the right of the Proton Waja, enabling them a perfect shot to the driver. The driver then took out a Nokia phone and threw it to the driver. The driver was knocked out and the Land Rover was driven to a explosive barrel, thus BOOM!!! NO MORE THREATS to the driver. The driver then head towards the city.

Upon reaching somewhere, the driver then came out of the Proton Waja, and opened the boot. There was a guy, shaking in fear there. He then dragged the guy into an underground place under the Taylor's College and tied him to a chair. The guy asked who the heck is him. He then replied, "My name is Bond. Alex Carbon-Carbon Bond. Agent 012." His boss, M (Mun-Ster) and he started interrogating the guy. M : Tell us who you are working for Mr Andrew. Andrew : What? You people don't know who I work for? Haha. And we're thought the CIA, FBI, M16 (M's company), and MIB (Men In Black) know of us. Guess we worry for nothing. Alex : TELL US WHO YOU WORK FOR!!! Andrew : Haha. Do you know, the organisation got people working everywhere, any place, including NOW...

M's bodyguard, Josh shot M and Andrew. M was hardly damaged but Andrew died at the spot. He then tried shoot Alex but unfortunately, Alex used his Sony Ericsson to defend himself from the bullet. Josh ran and ran, but Alex was always 3 meters behind. Alex then gain a sudden boost after drinking a bottle of Livita that he stole from a refrigerator of a house that he jumped into. Alex grabbed Josh and both of them fell to Subang Parade, hitting the glass ceiling, wall and a few people there shopping.

Both of them were severely injured and will only take one more blow to kill. Josh took a classical guitar of a music shop while Alex took out his phone. Josh ran to Alex, wanting to hit Alex but unfortunately, Alex called Kim and by using the power of Celcom and 3G phone, Kim appeared on his phone and said Hi to Josh who was running towards him. Josh then tried to slow down but tripped and fall down to the floor, followed by the guitar, hitting him. Josh was self-terminated. Alex stood tall and triumpant, in front of a Triumph brand shop.

Alex went back to the underground place and found no bodies, only pools of blood. He then saw M who was walking towards him and said, "Where's Josh? I trusted him for over 10 years. 8 years as online friend, 1 year as brother and another as bodyguard." Alex then said, "He's dead over a guitar." M replied, " Next time Bond, please try not to kill anyone. I want to eat the person alive." Alex said "I tried my best to do so."

Alex then went to Guang Yuan's house, Guang Yuan started attacking Alex with his ruler but Guang Yuan tripped and fell dead after hitting himself on the computer. Alex didn't even move a step. Alex then collected Guang Yuan briefcase. Outside, he saw a woman (unknown) in a yellow MyVI car and almost vomited his lunch out. The woman asked him to enter or else she will kill him. He entered the car and the woman started asking lots of question about Lucky. Alex was chatting with her until he opened the briefcase. The woman saw it and tried to kill Alex. Alex escaped from the car and the car just continue its path. He then stole a tricycle and chased after the car.

They reached the docks of Port Klang. Alex hid among the primary children that was having a trip to the docks. The woman went to see Lucky, who was counting his illegal money. He shouted at the woman, and the woman almost cried. Seng Wai came to the docks using a motorboat, with a few bodyguards. Seng Wai then chatted with Lucky about a Maths problem that he may use to take over the Subang territory. Lucky proposed that if his organisation succeeds in making Selangor territory to be his, the organisation wants a part of Subang, which covers from Asia Cafe to Sunway Pyramid. Beginningly Seng Wai disagrees, saying that he wants Asia Cafe, but if he refuses, the organisation will hunt him down. Lucky then gave the woman to Seng Wai as a sweetener to their deal. He has no option but to accept it. Seng Wai then left the docks, along with the girl. Alex stole a mini boat and row the boat using paddles towards the fast speeding motorboat. The mini boat crashed into the motorboat and Alex fell into the water. Seng Wai laughed and fell into the water too. The bodyguards don't know what happen, and so they follow Seng Wai into the water. Alex then climb into the motorboat and fled from there to Indonesia.

Leaving her at Indonesia, Alex came back and followed Lucky’s bodyguard, Hanks to the TGV cinema in One Utama Shopping Complex. There were people giving out gift bags from the TGV cinema. There were some gift bags different from the others. Alex Bond took one of those gift bags and found an earpiece. He entered the movie player room, which was above the hall. At the theater hall as the latest James Bond movie, the Quantum of solace was being played, there were a few guys chatting via the earpiece and Bluetooth. Alex then said, “Haha. You guys are so lame.” They knew Alex Bond was hearing their conversation. So they slowly left one by one. Lucky was intercepted by Alex on the way out. Alex took out his BB gun and tried shooting Lucky and his bodyguards. His bodyguards felt a bit pain, so revenge by shooting Alex down with paintballs. Alex fled through the Subway restaurant, passing through the kitchen with a 6-inch Subway Melt in his hand. Alex Bond then confronted with a bodyguard that has links to Mr Lai Wing Kean on the rooftop on the shopping complex, but they struggle. The bodyguard fell onto Lucky’s Mercedes Benz. Lucky do not know him and drove over the bodyguard.

Believing that Alex has killed another guy, M has Alex’s SIM cards given by the M16 rejected. However, Alex still managed to buy a new SIM card at a nearby phone shop inside One Utama. He then went to Aaron’s house, an old ally that he trusted. Both of them then went to KL and were greeted by a woman (which Aaron likes to see) which tried to stopped them from going to Pavilion but couldn’t. That night, they attended a fund raiser held by Lucky, while the woman appears again. Aaron went to meet his friend Hong Yi as Alex went to spy on Lucky. Getting no enough information about the organization, Alex went back home.

On the way, the police stopped him at Federal Highway. The police called Alex to open his car boot. There laid Aaron, being unconscious. The police took out their guns and asked, “Macam mana sekarang? Pergi balai polis sekarang atau… rasuah?” Alex told them that he has no money with him, so they got angry and tried to shot him. Alex grabbed Aaron and put him as a shield. He threw Aaron towards a police while he blinded the other with his phone camera light. Both of the police were then knocked out by whacking them with Aaron’s schoolbag. Alex went to Aaron, who is still alive but about to die soon. Alex carried Aaron and tossed him into the garbage bin, taking Aaron’s money, phone, wallet, and books along. He then left the crime scene.

Alex then went to Ridzuan Apartments, where Seng Wai and Hong Yi were supposed to meet Lucky. He hid in a garbage bin, as he waited for the right moment to strike. Lucky made a contract deal with Seng Wai, saying that the ‘nasi lemak’ stall that arrives only in the morning belongs entirely to Lucky. Seng Wai strictly objected but Lucky still threaten him with the organization. Seng Wai got scared and angry and signed the documents. Lucky gave him two briefcase filled with 5 million rupiah each bag. The bags were then transported into the truck, which Hong Yi was driving, heading to the nearest MayBank. He then rushed to his room, angrily. Alex Bond then came out from nowhere and shot Hong Yi in the head. Before that, Alex said, “How could you betray your best friend? You should at least invite me first.” The soldiers were shooting Alex at the moment he killed Hong Yi. Alex hid behind the Perodua Kancil for safety. He then stood up and started shooting. He shot everyone down with his handgun and ran into the building.

Hanks was left there to protect Lucky who was escaping. Unfortunately, the hydrogen fuel nearby exploded and Hanks was burned alive, before he was able to show his shooting skills that he was practicing in Counter Strike: Source. Alex Bond ran after Lucky. He then saw Seng Wai. The woman came out from nowhere, stabbed Seng Wai at his private part, causing a severely injury that he will never forget. He tried attacking but his stomach was acting weird. With the fire all around and the hydrogen fuels nearby, he farted and the hydrogen fuels around him exploded. There goes Seng Wai.

Alex was shocked and ran after Lucky. Lucky then attacked Alex at a corner. Lucky took his Physics textbook at the right and Chemistry textbook at his left, non-stop attacking Alex. Alex was severely injured due to paper cuts and bone injuries. Alex was at a verge to being fried. Fortunately for him, he pulled Lucky and Lucky fell. Alex grabbed Lucky and interrogated him. Lucky gave him all the info and Lucky was saved from the fire by Alex. Lucky tried to run but Alex drove his black Proton Waja and kidnap him.In the middle of a desert, Alex left Lucky there with a barrel of Sunkist Orange Juice. He rushed to Nick’s house. There, Nick was with Brenda, watching Pride and Prejudice. Alex then told Brenda to go with the laptop as Alex wanted to have a one-on-one talk with Nick. Nick was the double-agent of the organization.

Alex left the building, and told M (Mun-ster) that Nick is still alive and ready to be interrogated. M was shocked and yet thanked him for supplying her supper. Alex then told her, “The organization is 0801PE4, consisting mostly of high-ranked students and lecturers.” M said to Alex that Lucky is now in Sarawak, enjoying his time with his girlfriend (if he has one/two). Alex left into the wild cold, leaving behind his phone.

THE END!

Three Words

Three words is all I have to say,
to you that my heart belongs to,
The moment I left you away,
I could only say I Love You.
It hurts my heart and soul dearly,
I couldn’t do much back then,
I didn’t hug or kiss you goodbye,
As my tears flow away from your sight.

Three words is all I want to say,
to you that my heart needs to,
The moment I cried all alone,
I could only say I Am Sorry.

I could sense you’re sad and lonely,
It is my fault for making you as so,
I have to go to pursue my dreams,
But I shall remember you still in my heart.

Three words shall I need to say,
to you that my soul desires,
The moment I think about you,
I could only say I Miss You

My heart aches and burns painfully,
I couldn’t hold it any longer,
Hoping to be with you once more,
As I dream of you every night.

Haih...

5 exams down, 5 more to go... Haha... I'm going insanely.. *cuckoo cuckoo.*

Life's just ordinary up to now... Nothing much... Chemistry Paper 2 coming in two days time... Haha...

I beg you what to write somemore le... I lived a normal boring life though. haha.